Nine of Wands

As I look back on the last year and a half I can honestly say that was one of the most challenging times of my life.  Not only did I move to an island in the mid pacific where I didn’t know anyone, leaving a community and place that I love.  I also, temporarily, gave up my career in transformational work I had been doing for the past 17 years and went in to construction.  A lot of people may ask why did I do such a thing and all I can tell you is I wasn’t really sure, at first, I just knew I had to go.  And while I was there I chose to take a bit of a sabbatical and get clear on what is true for me and what I desire my life to look like.  I guess you could say, in a way, I went to find and become more of me.  And more of me I have become thats for sure.

Did I get some bumps, scrapes and bruises along the way?  Hell Yeah!  Did I make myself wrong and judge myself for the choices I made?  You betcha!  Were there times when I was going through some of the hardest things I have ever had to go through and had to go through them alone?  Yes!  Was I often sick and desperately wanting someone to console me or take care of me?  Yep!  Did I become my own best friend and step up to be there for myself when no one else could or would?  I did!  Do I love and appreciate myself more now than ever before?  Yep!  Did I have some wonderful adventures and deeply love another at the same time?  Of course!  However do I also know I don’t need others to validate me or make me valuable or loveable?  What a gift to be able to say yes!  Do I regret any of it?  No!  Am I so incredibly grateful for all of it?  Yesssss!  How does it get any better than that?!!

The nine of wands reminds me of the phoenix rising from the ashes.  It’s a time of completion and acknowledgement.  A time when you look back and see all the things you learned, all the struggles you had, all the good times too, and acknowledge it.  Take what was good and leave the rest.  Move forward knowing you did the best you could with the tools you had at the time.  You didn’t fail even if some may think you did.  You were bold enough and courageous enough to try something totally different… great job!  And believe it or not you have become more of who you authentically are in the process.

It is in that energy that I leave the island and the life I created there.  I move forward and go to Telluride, CO.  A place that is familiar, welcoming and yet not the same because I am different.  I have changed.  I have shed beliefs, ways of being, and even relationships that no longer serve my highest good.  I have entered the fire as one person and risen from the ashes as another.  I am happy to say life, living and being me will never be the same after this adventure.

Who are we today and what grand and glorious adventure can we have now?!

With this new way of being, what else is truly possible that we haven’t even considered?!

Beyond Grateful,


P.S.  I’m excited to announce I am doing what I love to do again by facilitating Access Consciousness sessions and Foundation classes.  As well as now offering Symphony of Possibility sessions.  In person in Telluride, CO, starting in June, or anywhere you are in the world by phone or computer.  How did I get so lucky?

The Symphony Sessions are about energetic empowerment and change and it can invite you open up to LIVING in a completely different way. Every person has a unique capacity with receiving and gifting energies and a Symphony session allows you to start to truly access what is true for you and your body — beyond everything that you bought as real in this reality.    ~The Symphony sessions are based on Access Consciousness tools and the energetic transformation work created by Dr Dain Heer. 

Would you like to play with living a completely different way? email

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